Letting go of my baby...or so trying...

Well, today was yet another day of letting go of my little boy...well, ok, he's not so little, he's never really been little...coming into the world at a whopping 10 pounds makes him a big boy...but, in my heart, he's always been and most likely always will be my little one.

He turned 18 this past February....

He graduated this past weekend....

He sent in his application for a passport today for his year in Korea...starting in September...of this year....in just a few more months...

Yes, today was another day of letting go.

We as moms will all face this day...or in my case weeks..actually make that year...I've had opportunities all year to "let go" of this little {ok, big} guy. It started when I ordered his senior year textbooks for homeschool. It screeched "LET GO!!" when he turned 18, I cried when he left to get his senior pictures taken and I secretly listened to the pomp and circumstance so I didn't cry like a bumbling idiot at his graduation...well, that worked, but I didn't practice seeing him in his cap and gown...swallow hard, hold back the tears...you can cry later...which I did.

He's the baby of the family...I don't have to do this again.

I graduated 3 children before him. This one has been different...perhaps because I knew I had others yet at home to busy myself with, to absorb that fact that my nest was getting empty. I don't have that now.

I took all the advice of the many older moms as they told me to enjoy my days, to savor the moments because time is fleeting, time goes fast...yes, they spoke truth, and yes, I did enjoy my days and I did savor the moments, but I still have to let go...walk into a new "season" of my life.

But, I'm living in TODAY, and this is where I am TODAY! God has given me a wonderful journey with raising these children given to me 26 years ago...it's been an awesome journey that will continue. I will be on a different path so to speak, but on a journey still the same. God is already shaping my days and activities in a different way because of where I am. I'm a mom, I will always be a mom...and that... I don't ever have to let go of...ever.

I don't fight today. I live in it...

Whew!! Well, I've finally made it to this point...I'm not talking about having a "blog" of my own now, but just basically getting to this point of writing my very first post! Who would have thought that creating a simple blog {because everyone can do that} would cause as much utter frustration as it did me these past few days? Well, I'm telling you, I didn't think that. Jeepers with blogs popping up all over the place, and everyone seeming to have not just one, but several, I asked myself, "how hard could it be?" I'm fairly proficient with the computer, {I said fairly, and I realize that is pretty broad}, but this whole blog thing was a bit more than a "fairly proficient with the computer" project for me to to tackle! What have I learned as my "take away" today?

1. my boys have no idea why I'm not fixing them dinner tonight {sorry!}
2. that I'm eating any chocolate I can find...because I want a "cute" blog {how I deal with stress}
3. that I'm not the admin of 1 blog but 3 blogs!!! Ok, I have to admit, I have no idea how that happened and when I went to try to delete those other two blogs...well, it added another layer of frustration {wish I had more chocolate!!}
4. pinterest is so much more fun...{not to mention all those awesome chocolate recipes!}
5. I'm determinted though, to make this work for me {cuz, I'm all out of chocolate at this point}

So, that said, I'm glad I'm to this point. It will be nice to click "publish" and jump over to my blog page and see this post....my very first!

Then, I must get some dinner around...I guess it's still early enough in the evening that I can throw something together...but, I'm not that hungry {wonder why....} and I don't like to cook when I'm not hungry. ...or I could learn a bit more about this whole blogging world...try to find a cute banner, or buttons or whatever else I may need to make this blog cute-er...cuz, it needs to be cute-er than it is.

I hope you come back and see all my new additions as I learn about everything in this blogging world there is to learn...then I can get onto why I wanted to blog in the first place and that is to be an encouragment to you to live your life TODAY! That has become a mantra, so to speak, of mine this past year as I've been ushered into a new a season of change in my life {50 birthdays has a way of doing that} I look forward to sharing that with you in later posts...

I'd tell you to sign up for email threads or something like that, or to follow me, or whatever bloggers do, but I'm fairly {there's that broad word again} sure that my page isn't set up for you to do that...I don't think...

Thanks for stopping by....